Yearning for the carefree non-child thought process......

So one of the side effects of not having kids to deal with on a daily basis is that I don't know what to do with all my time. I have all these things I would love to do but so few things I actually delve into. I wonder why that is and the only thing I can think of is that I have this thought in the back of my head that I will be interrupted.

How do you stop that? How do you inspire yourself to just start something? Anything! How do you turn the switch off that works that part of the brain where you doubt your abilities, your talents or your dreams? I am jealous of the people that can get up in the morning and get right back into something they left the night before. It is so hard to get moving on something when my brain is programmed for short spurts of time.

When my kids were small I knew I had a few hours before one would come home from preschool. These moments were used up by laundry and grocery shopping. Then there were the moments where you were finally able to do something for yourself and, thanks to cell phones, you would get a call and have to leave to pick up a kid or solve the world's problems. It is almost like the instant gratification that kids need these days but in reverse. You eventually give up and choose not to do something just in case you have a crisis and have to leave that. I wonder why that is and how to go back to carefree non-child moments. I guess I just have to start with slow spurts of creativity and hope for the best. Once I get into doing something often I can't put it down. My problem is finishing things. Whether it is an issue with not wanting it to end or fear of not being able to start something new....maybe it is the things I choose to do take longer than I originally expected. I am not sure. All I know is that I have so many projects that I start, even more that I have on a list of things to do but not enough finished. Again I feel it may be the result of knowing I have short spurts of time that allow me to have something to work on. That being said my goal for this time I have is to just work on something. Anything. If I am working on it then I feel inspired. I never thought I would have trouble getting inspired to do something but kids do that to you. Life can do that to you. We are all so busy and our schedules are so full that we don't allow ourselves the time to nurture our souls desires. If we don't do it now when will we?